1995 — SEVEN
Eve,
This I.S.S. room is freaky baby.
Your Kruster pellets are tasty.
So do you think you want to dump The Kruster?
Cause if you still like him (like more than a friend),
you shouldn’t listen to what everyone says.
But if you don’t, than tell him bonjour! (I think
that means goodbye)
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He must still like you for him to ask you out again.
He probably likes you a lot. But the only problem
is that he’s a SLUT.
Cause – just say he really did do that crap w/ Penny
Vachel. What’s to say he’s not gonna do it again?
And that’s gonna really suck if he does + you’re going
out with him. I think he really likes you, but he can’t
control himself. But I don’t know if I believe any of
this Penny shit anymore. Somethin’ quite fishy is
going on.
Anyways – Primo’s comin home today at 4:30 P.M.
I cant believe all this crap that’s going around now
about me + Tim Russo. Have you heard anything?
If you do, tell me please.
Cause he likes me and he’s telling everyone that I’m
dumpin Ben. to go out with him! That’s fuckin
deranged perception or somethin’! And I think Ben
believes him. What the hell!
I never said I liked Tim. I never even gave him
any reason to think that shit.
PEOPLE SUCK!! Rumors SUCK!!!
And also it’s goin around that I’m dumpin Ben for
Primo. How do people get there freakin info?
GOOD GRIEF!
Well I gotta write Ben a note now. So I’ll be seein
ya Eva babe.
Toodles!Jackie
I.S.S. = In School Suspension. Where you were sent to sit in a cell-like classroom with one window and subway tiles for walls, all day long, while all your friends were just behind the door. Teachers supervising would rotate shifts by period, and they ranged from Gym teachers to Economics teachers to Paraprofessionals/Hall Monitors to English teachers. I.S.S. was the worst; everybody knew it was better to be fully suspended from the building so you could stay at home. Well, not me actually. My mother would put me to work when I would get suspended (usually once or twice a year by the time I was in h.s.). I would have to clean the house, yard, car, whatever she asked forced me to do. But one thing that was nice was that she would sometimes take me to a movie, so long as it was an educational one. That is how I ended up seeing Oliver Stone’s three+ hour film ‘Nixon’ in the theater.
Kruster pellets = a name we gave to some kind of cereal I brought with me as a lunchtime snack in a Ziploc bag. I think they were peanut butter flavored balls but I can’t be sure. We re-christianed them Krusters after the unfortunate nickname of James. Who I still liked! God knows why. Probably because he still liked me. As I’ve mentioned in here earlier, the only thing I ever thought about was the present. I didn’t realize in a few short months I would be in high school where there would be seemingly millions of new boys for me to crush. Literally and figuratively.
I wanted to take James back but I didn’t. I didn’t want to believe what Valerie had told me about him and Penny but I also didn’t want to be seen as weak for going back to someone whom according to the gossip mill, cheated on me with a nasty chick. So I opted for heartache. I was probably eagerly dying to have another excuse for moaning and whining about something anyway.
Jackie had her troubles with the gossip mill as well. She was kind of like the alpha-female for our little group. There was something about her that raised her above the level of the rest of the girls, she had a sort of all-knowing and comforting presence. She looked like a very young Madonna, ripped jeans, rubber bracelets, tits, swagger and all. I don’t remember a thing about the Tim Russo rumors but they were definitely mixed up. Tim was a jock/white ‘gangsta’ kind of boy, who wore Nikes and basketball jerseys. Why anyone would ever conceive her liking him to be true didn’t make sense. The reaches of Jackies desirability crossed junior high social borders by leaps and bounds.
In Primo’s absence, Ben Scroderman had finally gotten Jackie. I think he always knew deep down that she still had feelings for Primo and if it only could have just worked out she would have gone back to him. Her parents understandably hated the kid and would never accept her spending time with him. Ben never liked me though, I always got that. I tried my best to get on his good side but it never really worked, at least below the surface, so in the end I just pretended he didn’t exist. In notes Jackie would about her either loving or hating him, and I never really read over those lines. I think that because it could never happen, as it was more hopeless romantic, I always still pictured Jackie and Primo as a couple, and I know they always did as well, in that sick, sad, sweet, junior high kind of way.
