1995 — TEN
Hey Eve,
I’m in God Posse school now and I’m in studyhall.
Some dude, teacher, man, boy is talking about the
bible. duh.
Rachel’s copying my homework, Andrea’s reading
some hair magazine. And Fran Marie just got moved
to the very back. And Candice Bacci’s … well… just
Candice Bacci.
Oh, now he’s talking about the Jews missing some
boat. This is not for me.
Anyways – Jean Kruger told me that you got your
phone taken away.
That SUCKS!!! What is it with parents and phones
!? @*!&
Oh yeah, some chick hooked me up with some
Warlock Satan dude in Epiphany.
He’s 18 and his name is Kevin Blake.
He’s cool. He’s like one of those high priests or
something in witchcraft and he like has a bonding
with Satan or something. He calls me every night
but we’ve never seen each other yet. He might be
coming to meet me at the school today cause I’m
stayin after today. Hey I just got a lightbulb!
Maybe one day you can stay after when I stay
after and I can get one of my drivin friends to pick
you up somewhere in town. Then we be hangin! We
gots to find a way to get together man I miss you!
Oh about Primo – don’t let that skoonie read the
notebook! That would screw us if he did. Also, the
notebook is coming to an end so if you want, I’ll
get us a new one… um…
So have you stayed drug-free this year so far?
I have so far.
But on next Saturday I’m gonna blow my record.
Me, Fran Marie, Ryan + John got sum plans and
want you to come. You don’t have to do it if you
don’t want to though.
1 more thing… Why does Primo want to see the
notebook so bad all of a sudden. Is he still going
out with Dee Dee?
Well, I gotta run. I’ll be back though. Toodles!- Jackie
As if it would protect her from anything, Jackie got sent to Catholic school that Fall. So did a couple other girls from our junior high, the ones she listed. She wasn’t too friendly with any of them except for Francine, whom we all loved when she showed up as a new kid in the middle of eighth grade. She was a thug girl but she liked all of us dirtball alternative kids. We referred to the new place, Chapel Of The Holy Cross, as “The God Posse”. It was a small, rustic (in a barn or something), co-ed country-style school with a mix of students from all around the county.
I never met Jackie’s High Priest, but I didn’t want to. He was from Epiphany, another Catholic high school in the region. I told her that he sounded cool and all, but I was a little intimidated by the idea of an 18-year-old Satan-worshipper who had been in Catholic school for going on four years. That to me was some heavy shit. I didn’t want to think about any prospective virgin sacrifice lines the guy might have been working on. We were fourteen and would both lose ours later that same year.
I never met Jackie in town for that excursion she mentioned. I didn’t even know she had any “drivin friends”. Her house was not in town, but it was a very short walk through a cornfield from town, so she could always get home. My house was several miles out of town, so I always had to have a ride or a chance to get on the late-bus from school, which I absolutely deplored. It wasn’t like taking your normal bus that went down a planned route. The late-bus sort of went where ever the kids on it lived, and in a nonsensical order. When I took the late bus, sometimes I wouldn’t get home till six or seven o’clock. I somehow worked it out so I could call a parent from a pay phone and wait in town and lean against a wall, rather than sit on the bus and be driven around the entire school district with kids I didn’t know.
Jackie dumped Ben on and off over the summer, and had a fling with Primo, but when September came around and we knew we wouldn’t be seeing Jackie in the hallways of the high school, Primo cut his losses and started to hook up with other girls. Jackie went back to Ben again for two seconds, but they broke up because she never really got Primo out of her heart/mind in full. The boys were were civil to Jackie, respectively, as friends while hanging out, but never to each other, and Ben hated Primo a little more than Primo hated him I think. They stayed away from each other as far as I can recall.
Primo really wanted to see volume II of our new notebook, but we hadn’t had a community notebook since I got suspended - the one in our possession now was strictly for us chicks. I’m assuming I’d written to Jackie about Primo bugging me to see it; since we had let him borrow the old one, he must’ve thought he had indelible notebook rights. Even though he had lost the profane poetry one, he thought it would be OK for him to read our new one. I almost let him but luckily I waited for Jackie’s confirmation on the negative so his eyes never perused it. This time, its contents were strictly letters between the Jackie and me. We liked the notebook format because we could write for as many pages as we needed to, and to have it all in a book to go back and refer to was handy. Our notebook was like our own confessional. There was no way Primo was getting his hands on it. I really wish I knew where those notebooks all wound up, cause if I had any still, you would have read the contents by now.
About her question - I probably stayed drug-free, at first, being that school had just started and I hadn’t fallen in with the even-worse-kids in addition to my already bad-example-friends. But a few months in, after I started meeting older classmates and the half of my grade that came from the other junior high school, I don’t think I was straight for the next two and a half years.
