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you have found my collection of passed notes from the 90s, welcome.

spanning from the beginning of 1995 to junior year of high school in 1998, a note, reproduced verbatim from the original with the exception of all names, is posted to this blog in the order I’d received it. each post contains one note, and a brief narration of the back story as best I can remember it.

there will also be, from time to time, relevant photos, songs, videos, links, objects, quotes, diaries, poems, and other ephemera (all admittedly completely self-indulgent and wince-inducing).</description><title>PAST NOTES</title><generator>Tumblr (3.0; @pastnotes)</generator><link>http://pastnotes.com/</link><item><title>afghanistanbananastand:

This is also what high school sounded...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://2.media.tumblr.com/fmFFV5cWPhsvp7ju7S36ch7Fo1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://afghanistanbananastand.tumblr.com/post/66243139" target="_blank"&gt;afghanistanbananastand&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;This is also what high school sounded like.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;For the record, I still think this album rules.&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Agreed! And this is what my 8th grade year sounded like, for serious.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/66248046</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/66248046</guid><pubDate>Mon, 22 Dec 2008 11:54:06 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>afghanistanbananastand:

If we’re talking high school, this is...</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://pastnotes.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/66247932/fmFFV5cWPhsuu7l7xk2hBZ0y&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://afghanistanbananastand.tumblr.com/post/66239541" target="_blank"&gt;afghanistanbananastand&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;If we’re talking high school, this is more or less what my childhood sounded like.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Head Like A Hole- Nine Inch Nails&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Me too, the first two years of it, definitely.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/66247932</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/66247932</guid><pubDate>Mon, 22 Dec 2008 11:53:00 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>dear gala, when they invent the time machine, we're hanging out, okay?</title><description>&lt;blockquote style="margin: 0 0 0 40px; border: none; padding: 0px;"&gt;
&lt;i&gt;&lt;b&gt;Q&lt;/b&gt;. Were you really popular at school, or a bit of an outsider? How did it affect you growing up?&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;
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&lt;b&gt;A.&lt;/b&gt; Um, I was pretty difficult. Mostly I was angry &amp; angsty &amp; weird, I felt like I didn’t fit in &amp; that really hurt me so I dressed weird on purpose &amp; was really unpleasant to people. I have no idea how other people at school viewed me, because I was kind of a paradox. I was the weird girl &amp; the mean girl &amp; the class clown all rolled into one. I loved to make people laugh, I loved to waste the teacher’s time, I skipped classes constantly, I never ever ever did physical education, etc. I was loud &amp; obnoxious &amp; “disruptive”, I was in detention every week &amp; I used to write rude things on the bottom of my pencil-case so that when I had it on my desk, the teacher could read it. HAHA! Conversely, I was skipped ahead in some classes &amp; loved English, drama &amp; photography classes like my life depended on it.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;They never really knew what to do with me, I was a nut; I wouldn’t have known what to do with me either. My dean called me a “witch” &amp; said that if I wanted to go to Germany on my class trip, I wasn’t allowed to take any black clothing. I SWEAR this happened. I had to go &amp; buy blue stuff. I didn’t own any.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;That same dean called me “the ringleader” of my class; I was always inciting other people to make trouble &amp; do bad things. I guess I am still a ringleader, it’s just that these days I use my powers for good… instead of evil!&lt;br/&gt;
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&lt;blockquote style="margin: 0 0 0 40px; border: none; padding: 0px;"&gt;- &lt;a href="http://galadarling.com/article/interview-with-gala-darling-part-two" target="_blank"&gt;Gala Darling&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br/&gt;
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&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/65462133</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/65462133</guid><pubDate>Wed, 17 Dec 2008 20:44:51 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Garbage - #1 Crush</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://pastnotes.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/61119839/HDgq7F1wigmthzivJOvvagzB&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Garbage - #1 Crush</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/61119839</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/61119839</guid><pubDate>Sun, 23 Nov 2008 00:52:01 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>singlescoop:
Was she asking for it? Was she asking nice? Yea she...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://19.media.tumblr.com/Jje6xeQ8tgmtbxt5gXXxhnHMo1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://singlescoop.tumblr.com/post/61119428/was-she-asking-for-it-was-she-asking-nice-yea" target="_blank"&gt;singlescoop&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;b&gt;Was she asking for it? &lt;br/&gt;Was she asking nice? &lt;br/&gt;Yea she was asking you for it&lt;br/&gt;Did she ask you twice? &lt;/b&gt;&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/61119511</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/61119511</guid><pubDate>Sun, 23 Nov 2008 00:48:31 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Video</title><description>&lt;object width="400" height="336"&gt;&lt;param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/eSFwTILoI2o&amp;rel=0&amp;egm=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;fs=1"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;param name="wmode" value="transparent"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/eSFwTILoI2o&amp;rel=0&amp;egm=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="400" height="336" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;/object&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/60788923</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/60788923</guid><pubDate>Thu, 20 Nov 2008 21:39:52 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>sarazucker:
marcy playground - sex and candy</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://pastnotes.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/60339025/wdYt3f5uzgggxn6gfUkJOxLn&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://sarazucker.tumblr.com/post/60337426/marcy-playground-sex-and-candy" target="_blank"&gt;sarazucker&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;marcy playground - sex and candy&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/60339025</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/60339025</guid><pubDate>Tue, 18 Nov 2008 14:26:22 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>natashavc:

slickyparty:

We imagine a high octane bukkakehfest...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://13.media.tumblr.com/PmztZdGruggbo8zlMJ9h3YNro1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://natashavc.tumblr.com/post/60317609/slickyparty-we-imagine-a-high-octane" target="_blank"&gt;natashavc&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://slickyparty.tumblr.com/post/60317189/we-imagine-a-high-octane-bukkakehfest-of-teenage" target="_blank"&gt;slickyparty&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;We imagine a high octane bukkakehfest of teenage angst juices and Manic-Panic colored sweat exploding all over us in the backseat of his car.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;JORDAN CATALANO IS MYTHIC. HE IS THE SUPERSTRUCTURE FOR ALL TEENAGE DESIRE.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The moist spot that appears on a girl’s white panties is actually just a stain from Jordan’s teardrops.&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/60321861</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/60321861</guid><pubDate>Tue, 18 Nov 2008 12:22:30 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Page from an old diary, circa 1996</title><description>&lt;img src="http://15.media.tumblr.com/HDgq7F1wigccndcjyIOOasPVo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Page from an old diary, circa 1996</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59866291</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59866291</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 17:02:36 -0500</pubDate><category>diaries</category></item><item><title>The Martins - Free</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://pastnotes.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/59860418/HDgq7F1wigcad9seDZRElA8V&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;The Martins - Free</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59860418</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59860418</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 15:58:46 -0500</pubDate><category>songs</category></item><item><title>
“Just so you don’t think I only watch films from the 1980s, this week I thought I’d step into...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v327/captastic/Empire%20Records/er_35.jpg" height="332" width="591"/&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote style="margin: 0 0 0 40px; border: none; padding: 0px;"&gt;“Just so you don’t think I only watch films from the 1980s, this week I thought I’d step into the ’90s with &lt;a href="http://imdb.com/title/tt0112950/" target="_blank"&gt;&lt;i&gt;Empire Records&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/a&gt; (1995). I love this movie about a Gen X-run independent record store for a few reasons. One is the nostalgia factor. It definitely makes me think of high school — Class of ‘96, in case you were wondering — and the many Saturday nights my friends and I watched it when we were too lazy to go out. It somewhat successfully attempts to capture the essence of my generation at the time (even though some sources tell me I’m part of the “Millennial Generation,” I consider myself to be a Gen Xer) with its hip, young cast, memorable characters, and quotable lines.” - &lt;a title="Permanent Link: Soundtrack Saturday: “Empire Records”" rel="bookmark" href="http://popdose.com/soundtrack-saturday-empire-records/" target="_blank"&gt;Popdose: Soundtrack Saturday: “Empire Records”&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br/&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;How I obsessed over this movie when it came out (I was 14). I love that this post only features the following gems (and more) that were not on the official soundtrack, which I played to death:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;ul&gt;
&lt;li&gt;The Cruel Sea - The Honeymoon Is Over &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;The Dirt Clods - Hey Joe &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Queen Sarah Saturday - Seems &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Quicksand - Thorn in My Side &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Ass Ponys - Little Bastard &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Dire Straits - Romeo and Juliet&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Throwing Muses - Snakeface &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;The Cranberries - How &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Daniel Johnston - Rock ‘n’ Roll/EGA &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Gwar - Saddam a Go-Go &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Sponge - Plowed &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;The Adolescents - L.A. Girl &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Suicidal Tendencies - I Shot the Devil &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;The The - This Is the Day &lt;/li&gt;
&lt;/ul&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59859758</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59859758</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 15:48:00 -0500</pubDate><category>links</category><category>songs</category></item><item><title>Photo</title><description>&lt;img src="http://3.media.tumblr.com/HDgq7F1wigc86vd9l0qb6L44o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59853863</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59853863</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 14:57:00 -0500</pubDate><category>photos</category></item><item><title>I’ve really been getting into the Past Notes spirit (read:...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://18.media.tumblr.com/HDgq7F1wigc7u302864q5RsSo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;I’ve really been getting into the Past Notes spirit (read: vandalism) since a friend of PN recently helped me acquire these awesome stickers for guerrilla marketing purposes. I tagged the back of a &lt;i&gt;moving bus&lt;/i&gt; with one the other day. I felt 14 again. Up next on the agenda: stealing EMPLOYEES MUST WASH HANDS signs from restrooms and hanging them in my locker.</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59853191</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59853191</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 14:47:00 -0500</pubDate><category>photos</category></item><item><title>Tool - Sober</title><description>&lt;embed src="http://media.mtvnservices.com/mgid:uma:video:mtvmusic.com:10210" width="400" height="338" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" flashvars="dist=http://www.mtvmusic.com" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="never"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Tool - Sober</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59813871</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59813871</guid><pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 08:23:00 -0500</pubDate><category>videos</category></item><item><title>Sometimes I would let my friends write in my journals...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://16.media.tumblr.com/HDgq7F1wigb8wr1bWQfK1aSno1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Sometimes I would let my friends write in my journals (especially if we were in detention together). This one was done by Primo, circa 1995. It’s kind of fucked up. (Names are blurred out)</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/59764180</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/59764180</guid><pubDate>Fri, 14 Nov 2008 22:30:00 -0500</pubDate><category>diaries</category></item><item><title>Red Hot Chili Peppers - My Friends</title><description>&lt;object width="400" height="336"&gt;&lt;param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/2Z-b8vWGjwo&amp;rel=0&amp;egm=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;fs=1"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;param name="wmode" value="transparent"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/2Z-b8vWGjwo&amp;rel=0&amp;egm=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="400" height="336" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;/object&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Red Hot Chili Peppers - My Friends</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/58894059</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/58894059</guid><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:39:00 -0500</pubDate><category>videos</category></item><item><title>1995 -- THIRTY NINE</title><description>&lt;blockquote style="margin: 0 0 0 40px; border: none; padding: 0px;"&gt;Tues Nov ?&lt;/blockquote&gt;
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&lt;blockquote style="margin: 0 0 0 40px; border: none; padding: 0px;"&gt;Hey Eva babe,&lt;br/&gt;I wrote you so many notes these past 3 weeks… but I lost em.&lt;br/&gt;At least I think so. Cause I cant find em. Anyways – I’m writing you a new one NOW. Well, I just came back from Pine Box High. You guys were in 1&lt;sup&gt;st&lt;/sup&gt; period. I saw Tim Russo. What a carpascious… … dork. Ya see, I’m tryin not to use foul language. It’s gotten me into enough trouble already. But hey! It got me outta that queer barnyard and into the high school!!! Oh yeah, I’m coming to school tomorrow.&lt;br/&gt;Dude, I cant wait. I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy to go to school. Ya know twats weird? I haven’t thought about all that suicide crap in like 13 days or something.  I believe this is like the dawning of a knew life for me! &lt;br/&gt;Let me see….. how have I changed …… 1. Different school 2. no more suck people &amp; suck boyfriend 3. lost 5 lbs. 4. changed religions 5. happier 6. back with the old posse 6. and for some strange reason… I’m starting to feel a little better about myself. Woah! Freaky! Oh ya – and I got my hair cut real short.&lt;br/&gt;Damnit! I requested “My Friends” to go out to you and guess what? They played “Aeroplane” instead! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Can they not do anything right? Well, at least they said our names right. That’s the second time man what is wrong with them. Does “My Friends” sound anything like “Aeroplane?” Anyways – I cant wait’ll tomorrow!&lt;br/&gt;Toodles,&lt;br/&gt;Jackie&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/58893177</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/58893177</guid><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:30:00 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Sebadoh - Spoiled</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://pastnotes.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/58892653/HDgq7F1wig45p18tpD6mzP35&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Sebadoh - Spoiled</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/58892653</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/58892653</guid><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:25:48 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Page from an old diary, circa 1996</title><description>&lt;img src="http://8.media.tumblr.com/HDgq7F1wig45k4c4ZEv5OzOko1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Page from an old diary, circa 1996</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/58892314</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/58892314</guid><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:21:00 -0500</pubDate><category>diaries,</category></item><item><title>1995 -- THIRTY EIGHT</title><description>&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Eve,&lt;br/&gt; I’m finally writing you back!&lt;br/&gt; Can you believe it? I know I cant.&lt;br/&gt; Well hows it going? Everything is going well here, I guess.&lt;br/&gt; I asked Marcella and she said:&lt;br/&gt; “I hate Eve because she is a skank. I will never like her, ever.”&lt;br/&gt; I think, since she hates Jim, that she only says that stuff to make him mad. Don’t feel bad though. Marcella Costa is a wigger anyway. Plus she hates everyone. She’s a ho. &lt;br/&gt; She’s a fool anyway. Don’t listen to her shit. Oh well, I better go.&lt;br/&gt; C-YA&lt;br/&gt; W/B&lt;br/&gt; -Valerie&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;A year later, I was friends with Marcella. But then she dropped out and I never saw her again.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://pastnotes.com/post/58569265</link><guid>http://pastnotes.com/post/58569265</guid><pubDate>Fri, 07 Nov 2008 19:18:00 -0500</pubDate><category>notes</category></item></channel></rss>
